Whatever shit feeling I’m experiencing right now isn’t from anyone but from myself. Being rebellious, or at least trying to rebellious, I want very much to do something unexpected that will turn out amazingly awesome and make my parents proud but I don’t know what that might be. And I shouldn’t have to work way too hard because then they’ll see and suggest that I follow their path which won’t...
Sigh give me a lil while to rant I promise to be fine after. I think my parents are (secretly) really really disappointed that I ended up in a private uni because every single time when people ask she tries to explain that I have been doing really well until A levels. Then now that I have to repeat mods its like I’m giving up on myself already but they probably still think I’m the smart old girl I...
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won’t make anything right
Been evaluating a lot of choices that I’ve made up till today - especially recent ones. To be honest I don’t feel too happy about some things and I’m wondering if it’s just a “in-transition” phase or it’s the way it has to be. It’s a resignation to this that makes me feel very unmotivated and disengaged - but hopefully it will pass soon.
"You're living your dream. Not many people can say...
When was the last time I had a conversation not laced with gossips alcohol party getting high making out sex scandalous and frivoulous details? I feel so stupid and everyone just needs to shut the fuck up.
Take me out tonight Where there’s music and there’s people And they’re young and alive Driving in your car I never never want to go home Because I haven’t got one Anymore Take me out tonight Because I want to see people and I Want to see life Driving in your car Oh, please don’t drop me home Because it’s not my home, it’s their Home, and I’m welcome no more And if a double-decker...
Recently I had a friend ask me what I wanted out of a relationship, so I told him the truth. All the usual things like friendship, support, loyalty, but also that I would like to be in love with the person. As in, I would like to think of them not as the best available option, but the one — of my deliberate choosing. Obvious, probably. To which: Him: That seems like a lot to ask. Me: To be...
Time does not really exist. It is merely a constraint we use in this reality. Along those lines, Oslie reveals, different parallel universes co-exist with ours. She is able to intentionally travel to or communicate with people in those other realms. As quantum physics theorizes, we can be in multiple places at the same time, and Oslie believes we seamlessly shift in and out of different universes...
Funny how I find myself back here each time something goes wrong.
The only reason why I’m Back here is because I’ve updated the tumblr app on my iPhone. Besides that, many things have changed since the last time I’ve posted a real update. Maybe it’s just the absence of school in my life that’s why. Work’s been good to me. If you Look forward to going to work, you know you’ve got the right job. And that’s...
allthecutethings: Baby gets her father into the crib and keeps him there. This is absolutely beautiful! ❤
We’re alone in this world, sunshine. Anybody who tells you any different is...– Grey’s Anatomy
I never saw it coming. I never expected it, neither had I wanted it to even happen. Somehow I wished it was just a nightmare. I also wished that I could turn back time and never started this altercation. But it has happened, it is real and this wrangle has caused me so much. I grieve, I regret. But this time, I hear and obey my folks, for they are right. It was an irrefutable embroilment, and it...
Perhaps due to ignorance, phobias and short lived happiness, some things can never be forced. Its tough to put up a false front too. We have been living in phantasm all these while, and that has been the cold, hard truth.
Hate how my tumblr is just of my instagram photos now. Too uninspired to write anything decent. Too busy to stop, and think. Which might be a good thing. Just livin’ life for the present.